My Ella Bella is TWO!

So saturday the 29th was Ella"s birthday. She was so cute in the morning when she woke up. I was not home so I called her. I sang her Happy Birthday and she sang along. We took her to breakfast and Her aunt Amy, brought her balloons, lei and tiara. She was such a cute little birthday princess. I love her so much. She is my last so I have just wanted to keep her a baby forever, No such luck! She is growing and its fun to watch. Each day she gets more and more dependant. She even is going potty some of the time. She will just tell us she needs to go, we take her in and sure enough. I am not scared of the terrible two's with this little sweetie. Not saying things could not change at any moment. But she has been my sanity, She is so quiet and so good. Sometimes when it is chaos all around her, I will watch her and she will just play quiet or just sit back and observe. Not that she doesnt have her moments. But in general she has been my little angel. I have felt so blessed to have her in my life! I cant wait to watch her to continue to grow and learn. I love you Ella Bella!

Almost Back!

So I know this isnt the best picture! I probably get alot more joy out of the sweat on my neck than you do. I just have to say that I am so grateful to those people who got me through these last 6 weeks. I decided that having the hysterectomy was not as hard on me physically, as what it was like for me mentally. I am a goer, I am always on the go, running, cleaning, doing things for others, yard work, baking, you name it I probably do it. To take it easy for 6 weeks, not lifting anything over 5 pounds is tough. Especially my Ella, oh how I missed picking up my baby doll. But it was hard to not be able to clean my house or just take care of simple tasks and errands. I had to rely on other people, Asking people for help is not my specialty. My two older kids, Charlee most of all carried the weight of my responsiblities and it is no easy Job. I am so thankful for them sacrificing their summer fun to take care of me. The doctors and nurses make it sound so easy. Just veg out the rest the summer, watch movies and relax. Oh it just sounds so much easier than it is. Anyways my point is I am starting to feel like myself again and it feels so good. I can be left alone to care for my littles, I can lift things heavier than a gallon of milk, I can drive my car and get me a diet coke whenever I feel like it. I have been released back in to my life to all regular activities. I will tell you one thing, it makes me so grateful for my strength, even if it is a little weaker than usual. I am grateful to be able to take care of my self. After having Charlee drive me around in a wheelchair one time a t Target. I realized how blessed I am for some of that little stuff I sometimes take for granted. I have developed a greater empathy for people who are handicap and rely on others always. I guess I am just alot more happy just being me. I ran 2 miles again and though it is one 13th of a marathon. I feel like I just finished a big marathon. I know what your thinking, whats next? We will just have to wait and find out:)

Back to school!

So I cant believe the summer is gone. I am sitting her left alone to care for my littles. I am going to be just fine. The house is quiet noone is fighting and just little footsteps up and down the hall. Charlee started junior high, today can you believe it. She is so excited not worried or anything just totally prepared. She might be feeling a little different right at this moment. Running from class to class, trying to get that dang locker to open and so many kids. Ha Ha the memories. I know she will do great.

Chase is the big guy on campus six grade. His teacher was his math teacher last year. I have to admit I am a little scared of her. It might be a rough year from him, but you know chase he will keep smiling. Anyways I am ready for a day with my two littles and cant wait to hear about the kids day.

Catching up !!!!

We were all very excited to welcome my new nephew Kaison!He is almost six weeks so I am way behind on this post. sorry. He is adorable and me and the kids fell instantly in love. Ella loves when amy sends me pics on the phone. She wants to look at them all day long.

Look at that baby he was so long and thin!! Amy did a great job. I was so proud of my little sister.

Charlee and her turn.

Chase and his turn. Chase may be tough but he has no problem just loving this baby. I like to watch him hold him because he is so calm, unlike chase and he just watches that baby boy almost in amazement.

This trip to the hospital was bittersweet for me. I was feeled with absolute joy for my sister and to have this beautiful baby in our lives. Then there was that baby hunger that hits you when you see a newborn. As I walked out of the hospital, 10 days before my hysterectomy, knowing I would never, for sure never do that again. I felt sad. Than I looked up ahead of me at my big kids and the littles. I felt blessed, way blessed and all was well!